oh my life is changing every day, in every possible way.

                                                                you're a dream to me, a dream to me.

 in less than a year i went from student to wife to now mom to be. the universe thought it'd be okay for me to be in charge of growing a person, bringing it into the world, and raising it. if that isn't a leap of faith, i don't know what is. so i'm going to run with it, and be the best momma i can be.

i have no idea what it's like to be a mother, but i do know what it's like to be a girl growing up. things aren't easy for girls, estrogen makes the world a little harder and by default girls are just not a nicer sex. don't deny it, we all have those shitty catty woman moments. none the less, i want my daughter to know this:

my serafina luna grace (sorry about the obnoxiously long name, that's just how we do it here at the schliefs.)

no matter what, i will always, always love you. that goes for your father, too. i will encourage you to be whatever your heart decides, even if it means being a mermaid. we'll figure it out. if you decide to be a circus performer or the scientist with the cure for cancer, i don't care- as long as you do it 100% and go home feeling good about yourself.  nothing will change that, from the moment i found out you were taking residence in my uterus, i have been filled with nothing but love for you.

don't worry about living up to standards- your dad and i have one- be a good human being. do that, and the rest will come.  if you want to play with dolls or cars, i don't care. i want you to grow into you as a person, not as who society thinks you should be. if you want to being a superhero or a princess, do it to your hearts content. don't let anyone tell you otherwise, and if they do, send them my way.

as your mother, i will do my best to give you the world, and remember, not all the time i'll be able to. but when i can, i'll go all out for you. i am already planning trips, birthday parties and holidays for you in my head, there is so much i want to share with you, baby girl.

don't let other people get to you. i know it's easier said than done, i've been the girl who's been picked on. i know you'll come home to me one day in tears because someone's hurt you, made fun of you. and i will pick you up in my arms and do whatever it takes to show you otherwise. and i'll also hold back all the mean things i want to say to the kids at school. you will be beautiful, inside and out, i know this because you are OURS.

your dad and i don't make sense a lot of time, but we have a good time doing it. go with the flow and it'll be more fun that way. laugh with us, sing with us, dance with us. we love each other so much, we want you to see that daily, to know what love is in a happy home. you may not agree with us all the time, but we have both promised to do the best by you, and make it a priority in both our lives as your parents.

and not least, know that we love you more than anything. our first child, our first daughter- you are special, and you will come into this world with two parents overflowing with love for you. and not to mention, you have so many grandparents, great grandparents, uncles, aunts, cousins, godparents and friends who you've already made a place in their hearts, and have fallen for you just like dad and i. we can't wait to meet you, baby girl. you have a lifetime of love to look forward to.

and remember, i am always loving you.
momma.

home is wherever i'm with you.

here, have a playboy esque shot of my husband on our new bed.

So if you've been in the loop, you know that our lives are changing very, very quickly. I *finally* was granted command sponsorship, meaning that we could go get our home and get my patoot to Germany. We lucked out: Dane was able to find us a amazing apartment on base! 

He did good. I sing the praises of my husband a lot, but oh my goodness. Picture text after text this morning, I was totally stunned by the place. Spacious, and lots of light! We have two bedrooms, one of which we'll convert to a office. The kitchen is super cute, and we have new appliances...someone was looking out for us. And, if you know me in the slightest- I'm already making lists of things I want to fill our apartment with! Dane has already agreed to  a Ikea trip...sightseeing AND Ikea?! Lucky, lucky girl.

It really hasn't hit me that I'll be in Germany a week from today. I'm so wound up in finishing things here that I haven't had the chance to really take it in. I'm nervous, excited, and beyond ready to begin my life as Mrs. Schlief with Mr. Schlief close by.

We both want to thank everyone who has supported us both during this crazy journey. We both rely so heavily on our family and friends for support, and we're so blessed to have so many amazing people in our lives. for everyone thats busted their butts in helping us get together again, from the bottom of both our hearts- Thank You.  We are beyond blessed for all of you in our lives.

love,

hannah.

love is patient, love is kind.

Patience is something I've always struggled with, before marriage even. I just can't wait to save my life. My parents are patient people, and my brother's pretty laid back so I have no idea where it comes from. Maybe it's me being an American and always wanting instant gratification. I'm going to go with that.

Patience and time has been on my mind lately. The other day i realized that out of the 9 months we've had in 2012, I've spent maybe a total of 3 full ones with Dane. 6 months apart. when you've spent nearly everyday for almost 2 years together, 6 months is a particularly long time. i am so used to knowing what he's doing, where he's at,  who he's with. But during this year, he's done so much without me. i don't understand a lot of what he does with the army. He'll explain it to me, but i can't really explain it and understand it. It was easier when he was working at the home- he snaked toilets, repaired screen doors, and helped little old ladies. I've tried looking online, at maps to see where these cities he tells me about are, but again- I'm not there, I can't visualize it or understand. The closest I get is with pictures. I'm so used to his only friend being Fish, but now he's met so many people that I can't get names straight.

Now, don't get me wrong: as Dane's wife, I am loving all of this. I am so excited that my husband is doing something he enjoys, exploring Europe, and making friends. A wife couldn't ask more for her husband. But, I want to be there to do these things with him.

If you ask Dane, he'll say the same. He misses being apart of everyone's daily life. He misses going to his mom's on Sundays, seeing Alex grow up, being at his dad's with Loki. He misses everyone and being apart of their lives. So many people looked to Dane- he's dependable, helpful, and a good person to have on your side. It's surreal for all of us not having him here. I had such a weird first months without him, not having him by my side Dane is not only my husband, but my superhero.

So here's where my impatience comes into play. I have had a hard time lately with the wait to get to Germany. There is a ton of paperwork involved, lots of waiting in offices, lots of signatures.  I got bummed because I am so ready to be back in my husband's life. To understand what he's talking about work wise, to visit these places with him, to meet his friends. I want to be an active part of his life again.

But here's where it comes into perspective: I was at Kirstie's (my amazing mother in law, I'm so serious) today and she told me she really misses Dane. And it hit me like a ton of bricks. I'll get there eventually, that these six months will just be that- six months, nothing in comparison to the years we'll have in Europe together. But there's people in Dane's family- like Alex for example- that won't have that luxury. Alex won't get to see Dane everyday, and vice versa. I'm so fortunate. I will be able to spend everyday with Dane, and grow with him.

So love IS patient. To be a good wife, a kind wife, and a PATIENT wife, it comes with accepting that it will happen when it happens. To not just let these last few weeks pass by, to truly cherish all the time I have with my amazing family. Because patience will make the days go by, and we will be together soon, in Germany, living for real as husband and wife!

auf wiedersehen,
mrs s.

first post :)

funny how life throws you so many change ups. to think a year ago i was beginning my senior year of college, and spend a few months with my then boyfriend before he left for basic. i had no idea what i was doing after college. a year ago, i wasn't the same- there are people in my life now who weren't there then, and vice versa.

fast forward a year and some change...2012 has become MY year. January I started a new job...and while the job itself sucked, I found so many good people there...one of which was one of my best friends, Amy. If anything, gaining Amy as a friend made the job worth it. In March, I said goodbye to the love of my life and he left me to embark on the biggest journey of his life. While Dane was becoming a U.S. infantryman, I was frantically completing my last semester of college.

 In May, I graduated from university (i went to a university, not a college...not sure why I keep calling it that) in under 4 four years, debt free (thanks dad!) and with a fairly decent GPA. I remember sitting in that auditorium, hoping Dane would bust through the doors to see me walk across the stage...but he was doing amazing things, too.

June brought a month of waiting. Dane graduated from the military at the end of the month, which meant the weeks prior were spent with me on pins and needles, waiting to see what the Army had done to the man I loved. Luckily for myself and my blood pressure, the day finally came- along with tears, and I saw a changed man, but he was still my man. to see that he had grown up, become strong and confident- it seriously brings me to tears now. if i could love him more than I did, I did then. to see him happy, there's nothing I wouldn't give. And to see our relationship become more rock solid through the time apart, well that was amazing too.

July was another month of agonizing waiting. due to the army being completely lovely (sarcasm), Dane had to wait longer than most to hear where he would be stationed. Out of the blue, he called me on a Thursday afternoon:
"So...how do you feel about Europe?"
"...what?"
"How do you feel about me coming home in two weeks?"
".......what?"
"How do you feel about getting married when I get home?"
"FWHJERSHGJF YESSSSSSSS!"

So began the craziest wedding planning/put together I believe has existed. In a little less than two weeks, arrangements were made, food was catered and a wedding dress was bought. i picked Dane up at the airport, trying to run in sandals (bad idea...) to get to Dane, decked out in his ACUS. we spent a few awesome days together until the big day came.

On August 1st, with shaking hands and a heart swollen with love for not only my husband, but for the amazing family I had- and was gaining, I married Dane. The whole day went by as a blur, but I have never seen Dane smile like he did when he was reciting vows, or just looking at me and everyone that day. One of my favorite memories was later, after I kicked off my heels. I started jumping on the bed in the hotel screaming "We're married!!!!" I even got Dane to do it with me ;) Life should be about amazing moments like that.

Five days later, Dane left for Germany. I have only spent 5 days with my husband as his wife. Weird, I guess. Then after that came all the fun stuff- paperwork, medical paperwork, fighting with medical people regarding medical paperwork. I want to say all that stuff was super easy, but I'm not kidding anyone and it sucks hardcore.

But now we are farther along in the process: Command Sponsorship should be approved for me within the week, meaning I can finally call the movers and book a flight. Dane will be able to go househunting, and then pick me up at the airport...where we will finally be reunited after two months apart. Plus, we get to enjoy a 10 day leave Dane will be granted once I get there!

So I guess blog will serve it's purpose to keep everyone stateside updated about our lives across the pond. I hardly think Dane will ever update this himself, but maybe...sillier things have happened.  I'll be sure to include some history and pictures every so often, too. :)

with that,
 auf wiedersehen!